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Two weeks had past since my yaya for almost seventeen years had left us for a vacation, I hope. Her departure was devastating not just only to me but also to my family. However, even though we don't want her to leave, we need to cope up which actually made me the Head of Household of the family whenever my parents go to work.

Being the H.O.H. was definitely a new thing for me since I actually grew up with everything done for me but that won't work in my current situation. I have to keep my head afloat and be strong not only for myself but also for my family. The princess-y attitude has to go thus, bringing out the mayordoma in me.

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Since my parents both go to work during the morning, I and my sister have to live with my grandparents. I love them both but of course, taking care of them and my sister is not an easy job. I remember during my first day as the mayordoma, I was a mess. I kept on checking on my grandparents and what they are doing plus, I have to prepare for our lunch and keep everything on tip, top shape. It was overwhelming but I have no choice but to get used to it.


Personally, I guess my yaya's departure was sad since she was considered as a part of the family already but something good came out of it. I learned to be independent. I was very dependent on my yaya when it comes to household chores and the simple things you do at home but since she is gone, someone has to fill in the void. Me. Practically, I learned to do household chores which is a very huge deal for me. I am turning eighteen this year so it is pretty good that I learn to do things on my own now.

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My new role in the family is not a smooth sailing. There are days when I feel exhausted and tired and I just want to lie in bed and don't move at all but that is not acceptable. If I don't move, nothing will get accomplished. That's what I realized during those down moments. I believe that I was given this role because somehow, my parents trust me and I don't want that trust to be broken and at the same time, I don't want for our family to go downhill because of me.

The future for us is unknown and it scares me but whether or not my yaya will come back, at least I picked up some pieces of wisdom along the way. I am just praying that our family will be able to bounce back after a devastating loss. Maybe for some, my yaya is simply a house help but for us and to those few people who know her, she is a wonderful person and she is a part of our family.

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Prayers, that's all that I can cling on these days. Hope is what keep us moving and most of all. Love is what keeps our family together. I don't know what tomorrow will bring for us but whatever it is, I believe we will survive it because we are together.