Doesn't it feel crazy that at this very moment, we are all living in the past, present and future. The previous second was already part of the past, while this second is our present and the next would be our future. It's amazing, isn't it? As we are all seating down, living our life and doing what we want, time flashes before our eyes and yet we never truly see it. It can either be caused by our extreme feeling of happiness that we tend to ignore time but it can also be caused by indifference in the world and in life itself. However, I would like to think that we don't see time because we are too happy to be alive and we enjoy every breathing of it. And so, before the clock strikes twelve and before the fireworks went off, let us all pause and see time maybe for the very first time.

THE PAST

 

Despite the commotions, the tears, the yelling and shouting, the entire 365 days of year 2014 was a lot of fun. Why? The reason is simple. Year 2014 was a lot of fun because each and every one of us was able to live through it. We were able to face the problems and made a way to solve. It may cost a lot of physical and emotional stress but we were able to make it. We smiled once again and kiss the tears goodbye.

In addition to that, I can say that 2014 was a year of realizations for me. Thanks to this year and the surprises it held for me, I was able to figure a lot of things about me. I'm not being narcissistic in any point but I would just like to share that this year was the year that I was able to make a 360° turnaround. 

Before, I was so focused in focusing my entire energy on stressing myself out because I thought that that was the magic potion that pushes me to finish everything. Obviously, I was wrong. I was only stressing myself out and it holds me back from making hardcore works of art. So, what is now my magic potion? Happiness. It's a good potion if you may ask because if you are happy with what you're doing then there's no reason to be stressed out and scared because life is not scary. It would only be one if you think that it would be one. 

THE PRESENT

 

While I am currently writing this, my father is in bed sleeping, my sister is in the room painting her nails coral pink and my my mom is downstairs fixing food for tonight's celebration. Somehow, this shows how different and the same we all are. I like to write. My sister loves to paint her nails with every color of the rainbow. My father likes to sleep. My mom likes to, well, organize things. 

We're all different not because we are not perfect fit for each other. It is because we are our own person but at the end of the day, we are a family and I am thankful that I was able to live life with them. I learned a lot from them and I hope and pray that they learn something from me too. We are not a perfect family. Not one is. But because of this imperfections and the love and bond that the four of us share, in my eyes, my family is perfect and I wouldn't trade them for the world. 





Of course, right at this moment, my cousins are preparing for their celebration tonight at their own distinct houses. I would be lying if I am to say that I am not sad that we will all be celebrating New Year's Eve separately since for the past years, we were always together but I guess it's time for a change, isn't it? It is once again time to make new traditions and celebrations. After all, it's not like I will not be seeing them in the nearby future since the connection we have each other has exceeded the line of cousinhood (if there's such a word).





And then, there are my friends who are either sleeping or cooking for their own celebration. I will also not be overreacting if I say that my 2014 will not be the same without them. They're the persons that actually gets me and who would agree to face our guidance counselor together. It's crazy because we all have different personalities and view in life but somehow, we ended up together having the time of our lives! They are the people in my life that knows how difficult it is to survive a five-hour sleep or a paper that was only given one week before its submission. They are also the people that can get me to talk for hours and hours without having an exact subject. Most of all, they are the people that can turn a frown to a smile with a simple joke or an extravagant birthday surprise. 

THE FUTURE

And then, there's the promise of uncertainty of the future. To come to think of it, it is pretty terrifying to be blind when it comes to the gifts and bombs of the incoming year but if somebody asks me if I would want to see a journal of the year 2015 holding exactly the moments that would happen, I would refuse to take it. I would refuse because what's the point of living when you know what would happen next? It would only feel like we are following a treasure map but with the exact idea of where the treasure is. So, yeah, I'd like to be in the dark for this one. 



Then what would I hope that 2015 would give me? Simple. To give me happiness, positivity and wisdom. I would like for me to face memorable memories with my family, cousins, friends and persons I have yet to met and solve obstacles and challenges that life has to throw at me. I want to read this entire blog post on the 31st of December, 2015 with a smile of accomplishment on my face because I know that I did not only met my expectations but was able to even pass it. 

So, what would you want for 2015 to give you? Would it be more cash? A boyfriend? To be a part of the Dean's List or the Honor List? Whatever it may be, don't forget to live and most of all, exist.